"The best way to wake up everyday is to see the one you love lying beside you."
The worst way to ever wake up, is to find your cheeks streak with tears and that your dreams hit you hard in the face.
I havent cried in my dreams for so long and it felt so alien all of a sudden. All the emotions just seem to come flooding out even when you are asleep. And to think that after so long, it still affects me.
And that looking at the images that excludes me makes it more painful.
Boyfriends says to make a move and talk to her.
Some things are better left the way it is.
And i got some to die for early birthday and xmas prezzies.
woot
<3 you, my boy
:D
1. Fall in love and know that he will never leave me no matter what and that the day when i die, he's checking this list and he has made sure that i enjoyed my life and i did what i had wanted to do before i die
2. Drive a bendy bus
3. Visit the safari
4. See whales live
5. See giant squid live
6. Visit the Niagara falls
7. Watch the sunset
8. Watch the sunrise
9. Receive flowers at work
10. Learn to trade
11. Receive many many helium heart shape balloons
12. Visit Venice and row the gondolas
13. Own a pink diamond ring
14. Go back and retrace the places where i fell in love at
15. Say the things that i never got to say
15. Tell the person i love him everyday
16. Have a romantic date
17. Get married and stay happily married
Its so weird, when i was writing this, i felt this weird tug in me. You know how it isnt easy to actually keep a relationship together and that love isnt the only thing in this world and that what actually keeps a couple together is alot of patience and work and efforts and compromises, knowing when to take a step backwards to look at a bigger picture. Knowing that when the other party have had a bad day and you offer a back rub for your love one, letting them vent just because they lost a deal.
As simple as it may have sounded, sometimes it just takes more than gritting your teeth to get through all this cause at times, and when you feel that your efforts dont get appreciated, you tend to question and ponder if whatever you were doing were worth it. If the whole of our life, we're just going to wait and wonder if the other party was going to make the first move, we're never going to get to where we want to be.
We people always tend to make excuses for things that was never ever going to come back to us. Or rather, we always see things the way we want it to be and refuse to accept the fact that somethings was just never meant to be, never meant to be in the way we wanted it to be. The sun isnt going to rise just we want it to would it.
There's just too many external factors to consider before anyone could ever proclaim happily ever after.
Its never been easy.
"I had a dream, you and me, would find ourselves, in love again"
You know you cant please the people all around you at the same times
And many times, you make crucial choices, you give up certain things
What keeps all of us moving on ?
Its been so long since i have actually bothered to update my blog
Its the last week of my freedom before i am going to start my attachment
It means squeezing in the train with all the other kiasu people and i can start learning to queue for the empty train in the morning so i can get a forty winks or so
Heh~
Finished my exams and no more school work for now
Heh~
And i forgot to mention that i finish reading Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows
Crappily good book and i love it
Though it did have a few sad parts like ____ died and ____ died
I refuse to mention who die here as my best friend ( who is weird ) will start laughing and crying and sobbing and hyperventilating at the same time when she rmbs who died in the book.
She's .................................... unique
Many times, i realise that i have a lot of things to pen down in my blog
But right now, i cant remember what i wanted to write
Or rather somethings i would rather not disclose here as i hate it when people who read, mentions to me in real life about it
Lets talk about double-standards
I guess sometimes we live at this point where i do potray alot of wrong images to people around me
People think im a spendthrift
I don deny i spend quite a bit on food
People think im bulimic
Thats the worst fucking ever insult anyone can direct to me with regards to my build
As the point here is if you dont fucking know me, dont act like you do and just assimilate that skinny people do not touch their food or rather purge after they eat.
And did u ever wonder why do we humans, have to live to see other people's faces' colors
We try to make people happy
We try to live up to their standards
Then i look into my wallets and realises that i have no money to give these material wants
And nothing beats the fact that if you have the money to satisfy their material wants, you can always win hands-down
Where is all the "thank god for every lil thing"
Referring to material wants, bestie refers it as that it is just the most attractive in the initial stages
ps: you know sth, you do not have to understand my blog cause i dont pretty give two hoots for the people who read them and do not understand them as this means, they do not know me well enough..
And then i know my bf loves me as he's offered and given me something he has never ever given anybody
And he bothers
I guess im pretty happy with all of what i have now
Im satisfied with that i still buy my own stuff as i guess, i do not want to have a growing reliance on sweets
He pays for my meals which is good enough as i eat more than i spend
And plus, the poor xiao bai who is currently crippled in hospital needs to eat too
And i forgot to mention that I miss xiao bai
this is xiao bai
I hate the corn bread car - bt it brings me from pt to pt though
And sweets was very nice to give me a ride in to Dempsey and out of Dempsey when he was absolutely starving
and hes nice
<3
though we have our screaming times too
HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEN BIN !
(though he doesnt read my blog)
hehe.
Gotten notice of his birthday celebration only at the last minute and only decided to go down at the last minute.
Swung by a few locations in Punggol with n to see his customers and was pretty bored in the car so i had to keep myself entertained
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